Heyyo everyone!~ Today i just wanted to talk about something that i honestly didnt know what category to put in. It honestly is about everything. I dont really talk about it that much, but i do have anxiety.
And like a lot of people who have anxiety, i have my highs and my lows, somedays im perfectly fine, and other days i feel so overwhelmed i just want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world. Today was one of those days where i honestly felt like i just wanted to just hide from the world. I was trying to film a video for my "A Day In The Life" series, and a lot of people where messaging me requests, and asking me about stuff, and theres nothing wrong with that I actually really like it, its makes me happy.... but today i just got super overwhelmed and i honestly kinda just shouted in /gl cause i was so stressed and i honestly didnt think i could even do anything anymore. (Im so SORRY to those who had to witness that) But like thats when i realized how much ive been adding on to my schedule. I love everything i do, my job as a teacher, my passion for baking, and my youtube channel. Tbh, i remember when i used to grow my own fruit, and ingredients, but i honestly dont have time anymore. ik it doesnt seem like a huge deal, and it isnt even about the fruit itself, its the fact that im starting to loose time... and some things that i really love doing have to get pushed aside. Now teaching, thats the one part of the day where i get a chance to impact everyone and hopefully inspire people, so thats one of my #1 focuses, which i love. But i also have to remember that i DO have anxiety, and let says for some reason im not dealing with it well that day and im teaching... well thats a problem, the good things is i have a solution for that. I have all my lessons typed on google docs so that i dont have to write it then, i just copy and paste!~ It honestly makes teaching a whole lot easier and more calming, and i would 100% recommend this if you are a teacher and have anxiety. This is the way ive been controling my anxiety for a while, i find different ways to do things, so that if i ever feel overwhelmed or anxious, its hard for people to tell.
However when i started my yt channel, i kinda just posted whenever i wanted... it was whenever i wanted to, and whenever i had time. However i began to post more, and i eventually came up with this idea of "Player Videos" which are now called "A Day In The Life Videos" this was my way to kinda get to know people better, to show that you dont need money to be happy, as long as you doing something you love. Which is why i started making these free videos for players. Making them is fun, and when people see the videos, its an even better feeling... but youtube is hard, there are so many requests, and its honestly a little bit stressful. I honestly truely do love making them... its just hard sometimes. I want to make everyone happy, and i want to be able to give everyone a chance to star in their own video... but sometimes the number of requests can be overwhelming. I love seeing people be like "hey, ive seen your vids, and i love them! can we do a vid on me?" Thats literally the best feeling in the world, but it also can get really overwhelming trying to film while have 10 people messaging me at the same time. So ive decided that every single week ill be posting ONE A Day In The Life video!!~ This way its a lot less overwhelming for me, but i will still be able to post for you guys! ALSO, from now on, in order to make it a little more organized, i would love it if you could give me a short summary/plan of you day for the video, then it will make it easier to film and better for me to keep track of! My discord is @Lauren#0711 so if you want to be featured in a video, let me know!
And like a lot of people who have anxiety, i have my highs and my lows, somedays im perfectly fine, and other days i feel so overwhelmed i just want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world. Today was one of those days where i honestly felt like i just wanted to just hide from the world. I was trying to film a video for my "A Day In The Life" series, and a lot of people where messaging me requests, and asking me about stuff, and theres nothing wrong with that I actually really like it, its makes me happy.... but today i just got super overwhelmed and i honestly kinda just shouted in /gl cause i was so stressed and i honestly didnt think i could even do anything anymore. (Im so SORRY to those who had to witness that) But like thats when i realized how much ive been adding on to my schedule. I love everything i do, my job as a teacher, my passion for baking, and my youtube channel. Tbh, i remember when i used to grow my own fruit, and ingredients, but i honestly dont have time anymore. ik it doesnt seem like a huge deal, and it isnt even about the fruit itself, its the fact that im starting to loose time... and some things that i really love doing have to get pushed aside. Now teaching, thats the one part of the day where i get a chance to impact everyone and hopefully inspire people, so thats one of my #1 focuses, which i love. But i also have to remember that i DO have anxiety, and let says for some reason im not dealing with it well that day and im teaching... well thats a problem, the good things is i have a solution for that. I have all my lessons typed on google docs so that i dont have to write it then, i just copy and paste!~ It honestly makes teaching a whole lot easier and more calming, and i would 100% recommend this if you are a teacher and have anxiety. This is the way ive been controling my anxiety for a while, i find different ways to do things, so that if i ever feel overwhelmed or anxious, its hard for people to tell. However when i started my yt channel, i kinda just posted whenever i wanted... it was whenever i wanted to, and whenever i had time. However i began to post more, and i eventually came up with this idea of "Player Videos" which are now called "A Day In The Life Videos"
this was my way to kinda get to know people better, to show that you dont need money to be happy, as long as you doing something you love. Which is why i started making these free videos for players. Making them is fun, and when people see the videos, its an even better feeling... but youtube is hard, there are so many requests, and its honestly a little bit stressful. I honestly truely do love making them... its just hard sometimes. I want to make everyone happy, and i want to be able to give everyone a chance to star in their own video... but sometimes the number of requests can be overwhelming. I love seeing people be like "hey, ive seen your vids, and i love them! can we do a vid on me?" Thats literally the best feeling in the world, but it also can get really overwhelming trying to film while have 10 people messaging me at the same time. So ive decided that every single week ill be posting ONE A Day In The Life video!!~ This way its a lot less overwhelming for me, but i will still be able to post for you guys! ALSO, from now on, in order to make it a little more organized, i would love it if you could give me a short summary/plan of you day for the video, then it will make it easier to film and better for me to keep track of! My discord is @Lauren#0711 so if you want to be featured in a video, let me know!
