My Anxiety & "A Day In The Life" Youtube Update || @Lauren

[Laurel]

Heyyo everyone!~ Today i just wanted to talk about something that i honestly didnt know what category to put in. It honestly is about everything. I dont really talk about it that much, but i do have anxiety. And like a lot of people who have anxiety, i have my highs and my lows, somedays im perfectly fine, and other days i feel so overwhelmed i just want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world. Today was one of those days where i honestly felt like i just wanted to just hide from the world. I was trying to film a video for my "A Day In The Life" series, and a lot of people where messaging me requests, and asking me about stuff, and theres nothing wrong with that I actually really like it, its makes me happy.... but today i just got super overwhelmed and i honestly kinda just shouted in /gl cause i was so stressed and i honestly didnt think i could even do anything anymore. (Im so SORRY to those who had to witness that) But like thats when i realized how much ive been adding on to my schedule. I love everything i do, my job as a teacher, my passion for baking, and my youtube channel. Tbh, i remember when i used to grow my own fruit, and ingredients, but i honestly dont have time anymore. ik it doesnt seem like a huge deal, and it isnt even about the fruit itself, its the fact that im starting to loose time... and some things that i really love doing have to get pushed aside. Now teaching, thats the one part of the day where i get a chance to impact everyone and hopefully inspire people, so thats one of my #1 focuses, which i love. But i also have to remember that i DO have anxiety, and let says for some reason im not dealing with it well that day and im teaching... well thats a problem, the good things is i have a solution for that. I have all my lessons typed on google docs so that i dont have to write it then, i just copy and paste!~ It honestly makes teaching a whole lot easier and more calming, and i would 100% recommend this if you are a teacher and have anxiety. This is the way ive been controling my anxiety for a while, i find different ways to do things, so that if i ever feel overwhelmed or anxious, its hard for people to tell.

However when i started my yt channel, i kinda just posted whenever i wanted... it was whenever i wanted to, and whenever i had time. However i began to post more, and i eventually came up with this idea of "Player Videos" which are now called "A Day In The Life Videos" this was my way to kinda get to know people better, to show that you dont need money to be happy, as long as you doing something you love. Which is why i started making these free videos for players. Making them is fun, and when people see the videos, its an even better feeling... but youtube is hard, there are so many requests, and its honestly a little bit stressful. I honestly truely do love making them... its just hard sometimes. I want to make everyone happy, and i want to be able to give everyone a chance to star in their own video... but sometimes the number of requests can be overwhelming. I love seeing people be like "hey, ive seen your vids, and i love them! can we do a vid on me?" Thats literally the best feeling in the world, but it also can get really overwhelming trying to film while have 10 people messaging me at the same time. So ive decided that every single week ill be posting ONE A Day In The Life video!!~ This way its a lot less overwhelming for me, but i will still be able to post for you guys! ALSO, from now on, in order to make it a little more organized, i would love it if you could give me a short summary/plan of you day for the video, then it will make it easier to film and better for me to keep track of! My discord is @Lauren#0711 so if you want to be featured in a video, let me know!

 

[Bellaa]

ILYSM LAUR!

 

[Powerfull]

You aren’t the first person I know to have anxiety, I’m sure it must be rlly hard, I’m fortunate that I don’t have it, but it makes u all the better of a person thanks so much for everything ur amazinggggg Lauren keep up the fab work

 

[Death]

Heyyo everyone!~ Today i just wanted to talk about something that i honestly didnt know what category to put in. It honestly is about everything. I dont really talk about it that much, but i do have anxiety. And like a lot of people who have anxiety, i have my highs and my lows, somedays im perfectly fine, and other days i feel so overwhelmed i just want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world. Today was one of those days where i honestly felt like i just wanted to just hide from the world. I was trying to film a video for my "A Day In The Life" series, and a lot of people where messaging me requests, and asking me about stuff, and theres nothing wrong with that I actually really like it, its makes me happy.... but today i just got super overwhelmed and i honestly kinda just shouted in /gl cause i was so stressed and i honestly didnt think i could even do anything anymore. (Im so SORRY to those who had to witness that) But like thats when i realized how much ive been adding on to my schedule. I love everything i do, my job as a teacher, my passion for baking, and my youtube channel. Tbh, i remember when i used to grow my own fruit, and ingredients, but i honestly dont have time anymore. ik it doesnt seem like a huge deal, and it isnt even about the fruit itself, its the fact that im starting to loose time... and some things that i really love doing have to get pushed aside. Now teaching, thats the one part of the day where i get a chance to impact everyone and hopefully inspire people, so thats one of my #1 focuses, which i love. But i also have to remember that i DO have anxiety, and let says for some reason im not dealing with it well that day and im teaching... well thats a problem, the good things is i have a solution for that. I have all my lessons typed on google docs so that i dont have to write it then, i just copy and paste!~ It honestly makes teaching a whole lot easier and more calming, and i would 100% recommend this if you are a teacher and have anxiety. This is the way ive been controling my anxiety for a while, i find different ways to do things, so that if i ever feel overwhelmed or anxious, its hard for people to tell.

However when i started my yt channel, i kinda just posted whenever i wanted... it was whenever i wanted to, and whenever i had time. However i began to post more, and i eventually came up with this idea of "Player Videos" which are now called "A Day In The Life Videos" this was my way to kinda get to know people better, to show that you dont need money to be happy, as long as you doing something you love. Which is why i started making these free videos for players. Making them is fun, and when people see the videos, its an even better feeling... but youtube is hard, there are so many requests, and its honestly a little bit stressful. I honestly truely do love making them... its just hard sometimes. I want to make everyone happy, and i want to be able to give everyone a chance to star in their own video... but sometimes the number of requests can be overwhelming. I love seeing people be like "hey, ive seen your vids, and i love them! can we do a vid on me?" Thats literally the best feeling in the world, but it also can get really overwhelming trying to film while have 10 people messaging me at the same time. So ive decided that every single week ill be posting ONE A Day In The Life video!!~ This way its a lot less overwhelming for me, but i will still be able to post for you guys! ALSO, from now on, in order to make it a little more organized, i would love it if you could give me a short summary/plan of you day for the video, then it will make it easier to film and better for me to keep track of! My discord is @Lauren#0711 so if you want to be featured in a video, let me know!

Just a tip for filming while people bother you, go to chat settings and disable chat, so you don’t see anything in chat at all, or if you want just use F1. And you can turn chat back on once your done filing your video.

Also, I get teaching is really fun, it’s not that hard as you think, I teach in real life, 5th graders cause I’m in this Teaching Program thingo. And I got put in the worst set, and the worst conditions possible. And yet I strive to go to school and teach them and make new lessons everyday. I get teaching in cities is fun, but it’s really no biggy. Teaching seems so easy in McCities, but it’s a whole different experience irl, which is kinda why teaching in mccities is easy for me. I don’t even prepare a lesson anymore since I already got a lot of stock knowledge about the topic that I can share. Don’t be afraid to do things, as long as you so it with passion, whether it’s hard or not, you will find a way to do it.

I cant really relate, but one experience I would like to share was the first day as a teacher, all alone with the students. My heart was beating faster than it regularly did, trying to cope up with the noise and I just didn’t know what to do. Most of my other co teachers have partners, but I was the newbie teacher and by some coincidence I had to go solo. It was really hard for me, and I would be disappointed in myself if I couldn’t finish the lesson. Even tho it was hard, when we had an event and the students were asked, which subject was the best. My students shouted for the subject I teached and majority of the louder voices came from them. In the end my department won, and I would say it was a rewarding experience that I won’t forget. Sometimes stuff in life are hard, but eventually you will see the light in it.

P.S. why tf did I use paragraphs
-Death

 

[Laurel]

Just a tip for filming while people bother you, go to chat settings and disable chat, so you don’t see anything in chat at all, or if you want just use F1. And you can turn chat back on once your done filing your video.

Also, I get teaching is really fun, it’s not that hard as you think, I teach in real life, 5th graders cause I’m in this Teaching Program thingo. And I got put in the worst set, and the worst conditions possible. And yet I strive to go to school and teach them and make new lessons everyday. I get teaching in cities is fun, but it’s really no biggy. Teaching seems so easy in McCities, but it’s a whole different experience irl, which is kinda why teaching in mccities is easy for me. I don’t even prepare a lesson anymore since I already got a lot of stock knowledge about the topic that I can share. Don’t be afraid to do things, as long as you so it with passion, whether it’s hard or not, you will find a way to do it.

I cant really relate, but one experience I would like to share was the first day as a teacher, all alone with the students. My heart was beating faster than it regularly did, trying to cope up with the noise and I just didn’t know what to do. Most of my other co teachers have partners, but I was the newbie teacher and by some coincidence I had to go solo. It was really hard for me, and I would be disappointed in myself if I couldn’t finish the lesson. Even tho it was hard, when we had an event and the students were asked, which subject was the best. My students shouted for the subject I teached and majority of the louder voices came from them. In the end my department won, and I would say it was a rewarding experience that I won’t forget. Sometimes stuff in life are hard, but eventually you will see the light in it.

P.S. why tf did I use paragraphs
-Death

Yea, im training to become gymnastics coach xD its so much different idk y tho xD its rlly calming for some reason xD maybe its cause they are 3 yr olds xD hehehe but tysm for the advice!

 

[ItzJazzMade]

He used paragraphs.. he must love you

and Lauren a person is that person with anything on it learn how to go with your bad sides and turn them in your not so good sides! and seems like you kinda already did

 

[BootsieBear]

I have REALLY bad anxiety as well, and I know what you're going through. This is one reason I spend so much time on the forums, because I love helping people and it actually decreases my anxiety typing on here!
If I were you, I'd take a step back and remember that this is just a game and it's not real life. You don't have to do all of these things. I took a break from this server last February and I took three months to look out in the real world and appreciate everything I have. I just felt so overwhelmed doing so many things irl and on here, and it was really good for me and I'd recommend it 100%. Now that I've cleared my mind I'm slowly starting to come back, and reading everyone's posts is really therapeutic to me and I've really missed it.
We all get mad, we all get upset, and it is okay. You told us your side of the story so everyone there knows what was going on, and everything will be okay. If you ever need to talk I am here, and I know so many other people are too.
Take some stress off of yourself, and enjoy your life!
-BBear <3

 

[Laurel]

I have REALLY bad anxiety as well, and I know what you're going through. This is one reason I spend so much time on the forums, because I love helping people and it actually decreases my anxiety typing on here!
If I were you, I'd take a step back and remember that this is just a game and it's not real life. You don't have to do all of these things. I took a break from this server last February and I took three months to look out in the real world and appreciate everything I have. I just felt so overwhelmed doing so many things irl and on here, and it was really good for me and I'd recommend it 100%. Now that I've cleared my mind I'm slowly starting to come back, and reading everyone's posts is really therapeutic to me and I've really missed it.
We all get mad, we all get upset, and it is okay. You told us your side of the story so everyone there knows what was going on, and everything will be okay. If you ever need to talk I am here, and I know so many other people are too.
Take some stress off of yourself, and enjoy your life!
-BBear <3

ik its just a game to some people... but its actually a HUGE part of my life, i have taken breaks in the past, but tbh it only made it worse. tysm for the advice!~